I finally gained the courage and rode my bike tonight to tescos and what happens, I realise the right break is broken! How I shat myself to pieces. It's hard enough to get my confidence back on a bike i can't sit on properly as its too high but the breaks is just the icing on the cake so to say! Ah but me falling off my bike with my shopping bags in front of the traffic lights with a fast approaching car was the event of the night..funny yet scary....which was not helped by my friend pissing his pants laughing at me!
Right so it is now 01:11 in the morning and I am still up buzzing, but yet not doing my three essays that are due in about a week! The weird and worry thing is that I am not really shitting my panties! So random....
So I was on the phone earlier today, and was asked 'So what motivates you?', my reply was I actually don't know...I truly have no idea to what motivates me to work. I've spent the past week trying to work and failing on numerous occasions. Is it meant to be a long term goal or little mini ones or something completely different? I guess its all personal/individual, but seriously guys if you any suggestions at all let me know, as I am struggling here! I even end up lying on my floor, as nice as it is, I really should work...but what to do? Procrastination comes soo easily to me but why? So unfair, I get frustrated to see how easily people can get down to work and concentrate, but why can't I? I think this is my little goal and challenge, set a target and try and reach it..maybe smaller but more frequent goals like I get to buy this, I get to do this or eat this or even see someone in particular?? Maybe just maybe that will help me work...well here's me hoping!
